Rabba Ishq Naa Hove - Season 3 - Part 28

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Chapter 28

Arnav’s POV

I sit at the airport gates, waiting for the announcement to board my flight to India. After that disastrous dinner date, where Khushi confronted to me that she would never return to me, I wandered until midnight in the streets of New York alone, thinking what to do next. It was around early morning when I made that decision. I had to leave her alone. If she has no plans of returning to me, I cannot keep stressing her out. Yes she had given me one month time, and one week was already passed to that, but she didn’t do this to give a chance to me or our marriage. She agreed only because I wanted to redeem all my sins that I did on her by dragging her into my revenge against Shashi Gupta. Khushi never loved me, she never will. And I can’t be around her and poison her future plans. She was so sure of finding another man in future whom she might even love and get intimate with. How could I be there to see all that or stop her from doing so if that’s what she really wanted? I couldn’t. So, I took this decision to leave her for her best. She is my love. She is my wife at the moment but I’ll not chain her to me if she is so freaking oblivious to my feelings for her. I want her to move on if she really wants to. I don’t know what I would do from here, without her, but I’ll not let my toxic love ruin her life anymore. So I packed my bags and leaving a voice message to Maa on her phone, while she was sleeping in her room, I left for the airport. It’s high time I free the woman who is forcibly bind to me and is clearly unhappy.

The announcement to board the flight to Delhi happens and I get up when my phone rings. It’s Maa. I realize she must have woken up and heard my message of leaving suddenly to India and has called me. I can’t ignore speaking to her so I answer.

“Arnav?” she sounds confused and displeased. “Why are you suddenly leaving for India? What happened? Even Khushi came home alone last night after your dinner and locked herself up in her room. I asked her about you and she said you had some work to finish so you didn’t return home with her.”

She told Maa that? Hmm.! She lied to keep Maa stressfree.

“Maa, I have some work to..”

“No, Arnav.. Don’t lie. Don’t lie to me now. I know this is not why you are leaving. There is something more that you and Khushi are hiding from me.”

I gulp nervously.

“I have sensed it every single minute, Arnav when you two are together. No ordinary couples will drag a silly fight for so many days and not even sleep in the same room. It’s not even been a year to your marriage and this is how you two are handling your relationship? It doesn't seem right. So, you tell me this right away before I ask Khushi about it. What is wrong between you two?”

I swallow my tears before turning the voice call into Video. Maa accepts the request and now we can see each other. Whatever I have to confess now to her needs me to look into her eyes.

“I’ve sinned Maa..” I admit.

“What?” she gasps. “What sin? What have you done, Arnav? Tell me clearly.”

“I married Khushi for revenge.” I finally say it.

“What?” she shouts. “What are you..”

“Khushi is that same woman I always loved Maa. She is Shashi Gupta’s daughter.”

Maa becomes speechless and before she starts making her own assumptions, I tell her briefly how after she was admitted for her treatment in the US, I never stopped stalking Shashi Gupta and once I was capable enough financially to take my revenge, I trapped Khushi to marry me. I tell her how Khushi always wanted to marry an NRI and shift to US so that she gets to take up her modelling career. And that I used that chance to marry her and despite marriage kept her at bay so that I could hurt her which would also hurt her father.

“Why Arnav?” she cries. “How could you hurt the woman you loved all the time?”

“That’s the sin I did, Maa.” I admit looking guiltily at her and continue the rest of the story telling her how I demeaned her before Lavanya and never let her share my bedroom or bed. But soon enough, I couldn’t hurt her because it pained my heart too but I was too late to do. I tell her we consummated our marriage one night because of the attraction we had and made the mistake of lying to Di that the night didn’t mean a thing to me, which Khushi overheard and since then she has started hating me back even more intensely. I tell her how Khushi left me and came to US and then took up the modelling career, how she then got to know Maa’s whereabouts and the rest Maa already knew. I came to US to win Khushi back but couldn’t.

“Arnav,” Maa sobs. “You don’t end relationships like this.. Come back. We will sort it out. I will speak to Khushi.”

“No” I demand. “You wouldn’t convince her to give me a chance because I don’t want that, Maa. I don’t want Khushi to think about me for others. For your sake she has already tolerated me enough and I don’t want to hurt her further.”

“You can’t survive without her, Arnav…” Maa’s tone is laced with worry. “I know you can’t.”

“I’ll try to Maa. If that makes her happy, this is the only way I can redeem myself. By letting her choose herself, her happiness, her desires from life, over me. Wish I had realized this a bit earlier, I wouldn’t have messed it up so much. If six years ago when Khushi confronted to me that she never loved me and was just infatuated, I should have accepted it and moved on. I didn’t which in turn made me challenge Shashi Gupta and he messed up with our family bad. It is now I get to know that Shashi Gupta is not Khushi’s biological father. So whatever pain I tried to give him by hurting Khushi hit back on me because Shashi Gupta hardly cared if she was happy or in pain.”

Maa is even more shocked and quiet but I see tears still rolling down her cheeks. I compose myself hearing the last announcement for me to board the flight.

“She is all alone Maa. She has a lot to bear and she needs you there with her. After knowing Shashi Gupta was using her for her money and now I am making him pay for his sins, has already shook her world. She needs you by her side. I wanted to be her strength and support her in this situation but Khushi isn’t letting me do so. But she loves you, Maa. Give her that support and strength. Stay with her.”

“I will,” Maa nods wiping her tears. “But who will look after you?”

I don’t reply to that.

“Arnav, promise me you will try to rise up from all this and not let Khushi’s rejection be another reason for your heartbreak. I want my son to come out of all this grief and get back to his normal life. Heal Arnav. Heal your heart if you want me to worry less about you. Both Khushi and you are my children. I can’t pick one of you. I want you both. I’ll stay with Khushi for now because she supported me when she didn’t have to. But I can never stop worrying for you if you be alone and in grief there. I want you to seek your happiness.”

“Keep my Khushi happy, I’ll be happy back in India, Maa.”

Maa sobs.

“Promise me.”

I nod. “I promise. No more heartbreak.” I keep my fingers crossed down which she doesn't see. It’s a fake promise. How can I be happy when I don’t have the person whom I love with me? But Maa doesn't need to know that and be worried. So I lied. “Maa, I have to board the flight. Will call you once I land.”

“Call me daily. Or else, I am coming there by the next flight.”

I smile.

“I will call you daily. I promise.”

That’s a true promise. I love Maa and obviously want to look after her wherever she is. Disconnecting the call and shutting off my phone, I make my way to board the flight.

Khushi’s POV

I am furious!! I heard Maa and Arnav’s conversation. After coming back home last night, I could hardly sleep and Arnav’s desperation to want me to give him a chance again kept haunting my mind throughout. So, when I woke up this morning after whatever little sleep I got for an hour or two, I went straight to Arnav’s guest room where he stayed to see if he was there but his room was empty. Horror struck my heart and I came to Maa to check on her when I heard her crying and asking Arnav on phone why he suddenly left for India. And that’s how I couldn’t stop myself from being a part of this conversation silently. He left? He left? Tears prick my eyes. And most importantly, he confronted to Maa what all he did to me. Never thought Arnav would take that risk. And wait.. he even asked maa to stay with me and be my support? Tears roll down my eyes.

“Khushi?” Maa sees me.

The look on her face confirms she has realized I heard them speaking. She quickly reaches me and takes me inside her room.

“He left?” I angrily ask.

“Yes,” she blankly nods.

Arnav left to India. Why am I not shocked? I know he would do something like this. After that argument we had post our forced dinner date, I had that feeling I would never see him again. Tears spring in my eyes again which Maa wipes away. I can’t believe Maa is still on my side. At least I didn’t expect her to be normal towards me after knowing from Arnav, I am the same woman whom he loved in the past.. six years ago.

“It’s okay, Khushi,” Maa smiles weakly. “Your future goals are very clear this time and you have told it time and again that you never loved Arnav. So, he going back to India now is the best for both of you.”

I shake my head in disagreement. Now that Arnav has opened up to her I can’t hold myself either and share what I am actually going through at the moment.

“If it is the best decision Maa, why does it hurt so much still? I don’t know what I feel for him, Maa. I am so clear about everything now. What I want, what I don’t want but why the hell can’t I figure it out what I feel for Arnav? Why is my heart always in a fix when it comes to him? Attraction between us was always there, I will never disagree to that. I lied to him six years ago that I loved him and it broke his heart. Then he took his revenge from me by marrying me forcibly, our relationship took a worse turn again. But soon the attraction fueled and led us to spend a night together. The next morning he lied to Anjali that it didn’t meant anything to me when I was ready to think of a future with him. It broke my heart. All of this led me here to the USA and now I am standing on my own feet, and he is coming back to me telling me that he was wrong to drag me into this revenge thing and now wants to give this marriage a chance, leaving me confused why should I give him a chance now? Our relationship has become like a remote control, Maa where Arnav and I keep toggling with the start/pause and end buttons as and when we want to. When I want him to go away, he comes back. When he wants to me to stay, I go away. Why the hell can’t we both want the same thing at the same time?” I shout before hiding my face in between my palms to stop my tears.

Maa pulls me into a hug.

“Its okay. Compose yourself, Khushi. It’s okay.”

I cry, cry and cry until I don’t have that energy in me anymore. It takes an hour almost for Maa to keep convincing me.

“Okay tell me one thing. Had Arnav not left to India, what did you want him to do?” she asks.

I go blank.

“I…” I try to speak but words fail. “I don’t know..”

I am being honest to her. She is right to ask me that. If Arnav hadnt left to India, what would I want from him? Just allow him to act as a good husband for the next three more weeks and then what? He had as is promised to leave me alone if I didn’t want him in my life, then why did it hurt me now so much?

“Khushi,” she cups my face. “Can I tell you something honestly?”

I nod. Yea. Anything.. any input from her would be appreciated to ease my confusion.

“Arnav did what he had to. He is in pain but he left you so that you stay happy without him if that’s what you want. Now it is your turn to take the right decision for your life. Relationships have weakened you. It’s high time you come out of all this and do what you love doing. You love your job. You love your friends here. You love your life here. Now love yourself. Love your heart and let it make its decision.”

She is right.

“And I am with you. I am with both my children. I want you both happy. Arnav has promised me he will move on and stay happy for me. And I want the same promise from you too. Just do what you love, move on and stay happy. Cribbing over the same things, thinking and lamenting on the griefs life gave you will take you nowhere. It will break you forever. I want both my children to start afresh.. if not together. .. then without each other and I am going to support you both.”

I don’t know what to say but she seems right. Thinking why Arnav left, what will happen hereon and how he or I will adapt to this change in our life is not going to lead us anywhere. I hug her again, drawing some strength from her but I wonder who will Arnav get his strength from? He will be all alone there in India.

“You should stay with him, Maa. I can’t be so selfish to have you here and..”

“Let me decide whom I want to be with and when I want to go stay with my son,” she interrupts. “For now, you need me too. And that doesn't mean I will ignore taking updates of Arnav.”

I don’t know how to convince her beyond this so I just accept it at the moment but I don’t stop feeling responsible for everything that happened in the last few hours. Damn! My heart is confusing me. Earlier Arnav was the villan in my story for whatever he did to me and now I feel being one in his. What is happening?

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Two weeks later.

“You need medical help,” Pam tells me as we sip the coffee together after the shoot is over.

I give her a cold glare. It’s been two weeks since Arnav left to India and I have started to do what I love doing again in my life, modelling and standing on my own feet, taking care of Maa, but every night when I sleep, I realize something is still amiss. I don’t even remotely want to relate this missing thing to Arnav but I still feel guilty for being the reason of his pain. I know Maa talks to him daily over video calls and once when I asked her how he was doing, she even told me he was good. But why didn’t I believe it? It’s like I know he is not good. He can’t be good without me. I know. I am not taking any pride in this. I am guilty that he is not happy there and for some reason I too am not very happy here. Gosh! This is so confusing so I shared it with NK and Pam and it is on that context why she told me I need medical help.

“I am serious, Khushi.” Pam continues. I turn to NK who is trying hard not to interrupt us.

“You too think the same?” I ask to him and after a minute he nods in agreement.

“You need to clear your thought process and come out of this guilt. So yes, seeking a medical counselor is best at the moment.”

I finish the cup of coffee. They both look at me seriously thinking I would scold them both for even suggesting me that but I shock them by agreeing to it.

“I’ll take an appointment this weekend.”

“You will?” Pam gasps.

“Yes, because I have been thinking lately of that option too. I don’t know how everything should be perfect in my life now but it doesn't seem so. I better speak to a specialist who can shed some light on this.”

Pam holds my hand.

“It will get your life back on track, Khushi. I am sure. Just speak to a counselor and see what advice they give. I know you have hardly been sleeping well at nights. And that’s not good.”

I nod. She is right. I haven’t slept well recently and now I wonder if this is my state, what would be Arnav going through?

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A week later I get an appointment with Doctor Payal who is a psychologist. I fill out the form asking the basic questions of my life and routine which she reads during my consultation and puts it away. I tell her about my past with Arnav too and the way this entire chapter of my life is confusing me.

“Hmm,” she nods and shows me the paper again where I have signed. “What have you signed here? Can you spell it for me?”

I nod and read it for her.

“I have signed it as Khushi Gupta.”

“Which you are not.” she tells me.

“You told me Shashi Gupta is not your biological father and nor did he ever treat you as his good daughter.” She mentions.

I agree.

“And since you don’t even want to consider your marriage with Arnav as it was a forced one, or tricked one, whatever you call it, I suggest the next time you sign anywhere.. on any papers. Use only your name. Khushi. That’s it. No Gupta. No Raizada.”

I swallow. Not Raizada? She observes me closely and waits for my next question.

“But.. why does it even matter?” I ask.

“It matters Khushi. I want you to put yourself first over everyone and everything else. That’s the only way we can continue this therapy further. No Gupta man or Raizada man is your priority now. Until you tell that to yourself, you will never make your own identity. You are here to clear off your confusions, right? Then lets start with this. From now on, you are only Khushi for me, your friends and your colleagues. Rest all, we can continue in our next session.”

I smile back at her and nod. She is right. I have to first be myself to takeover my mind and keep it in sync with my heart and only then I’ll be clear what I want in life.

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Week 5

When I come for my second appointment with Payal, I sign the form as Khushi and she smiles at me.

“So? How was your week?”

“Better.” I honestly reply. “I was more focused on work. Got a new assignment too.”

“Wow. That’s great. And did the medicines I give you to sleep well at night work?”

I freeze! Yes, She had given me some medicines almost sleeping pills kind which could help my mind relax and let me good sleep.

“Not.. not really. I mean, I took them and I got sleep but not until late.. I think I need a higher dose probably.”

She smiles.

“The dose is perfect Khushi.”

“Is it? Then why don’t I get sleep?”

“Because maybe you are thinking something every night. It happens” she adds. “People tend to think about their entire day events at night before they sleep to analyze what they did right or wrong. What do you think about when you are on bed?”

I freeze again.

“I… I think about.. nothing..”

“You are lying,” she sighs. “I can’t help you if you lie to me, Khushi. Don’t think I will judge you if you tell me the truth. I am just your counselor. I would only listen and give you my advice. Show you the right way..”

She is right. I shouldn’t lie to her so I tell her the truth.

“When I.. when I hit the bed.. I think of.. Arnav.” I look down.

“Hmm” she notes something. “What about Arnav?”

“How his day would have passed.?”

“Does it matter to you if his day was bad?”

“Of course it does.” I nod.

“Why?”

I freeze.

“humanity…. I feel bad that he is alone there and has no one to speak to what he is feeling and maybe he isn’t coping up well with our physical seperation and…”

“You want him to be happy?”

“Yes,” I nod. “I want him to be happy too.”

“Hmm”

She makes some notes and then raises her head again to look at me.

“I have a homework for you.” she says and I wait for her to continue. “Today, when you go back home, try to find somehow if Arnav is happy and normal there. Who knows maybe he has moved on like you are trying to? You told me he has a friend called Lavanya, right? He is close to her. Ask her or ask his mother and see if she knows how he is doing these days.”

“Hold on…” I interrupt. “That day you told me you want me to think only as Khushi… not as a Gupta or Raizada.. Now you want me to stalk Arnav’s life?”

“Nope. I just want you to get answers to the questions you think daily when you hit the bed. Why give your mind that strain? Once you know Arnav is good in his life, you can relax and continue to move on. And then you too will get the good sleep you deserve.”

That sounds fair but..

“Khushi, you said for humanity you care for him. So there is no harm in knowing how he is doing there. Right?”

I nod.

“Yes. I.. I will ask Lavanya how he is and.. I hope he is good. So.. I can be relieved and.. get my beauty sleep.”

“Absolutely.” She smiles.

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Week 6

“You spoke to Lavanya?” Payal asks me as during my next appointment, after we discuss our initial questions on how my week was workwise and personally.

“Yes, she told me she has an eye on Arnav and thankfully he seems to be okay. He is going everyday to work, and he sounds normal.”

“Good” Payal smiles. “See, now you should be relieved that he is okay there and so should you.”

I agree. Now that soft guilt I had that I couldn’t reciprocate to his love or give him a chance as my husband is gone. And now that I feel better, I am going to ask Maa to go to India and spend time with Arnav too. I know they both are missing each other. I can’t be that selfish and have Maa only with me. I tell that to Payal too and she agrees.

“Great. You know what Khushi, you are slowly coming on track which is good. Now just focus on your work and chill. You have friends. Go out with them, you will feel relaxed and happy.”

Yea. I plan to do that too. Pam and NK are so close to me as friends and we hardly could go out to party despite me winning so many new assignments now. My professional life is going great slowly and I am getting more work so yes, I have some other plans too. Once Maa shifts to India with Arnav for some time, I will shift from Lavanya’s penthouse into a rental apartment. Now I can afford a one bedroom apartment in New York for sure. This will make me completely independent hereon and more responsible. Huh!! Looks like the therapy is finally working in my favor.

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Week 8

Two months since Arnav and I saw, or talked to each other.

“Maa left to India this week” I tell Payal who nods. “I am missing her.”

“Of course you will. She was so dear to you.”

“Yep. But I am happy that she will stay with Arnav and he will get his mother’s support and strength too now. I am happy.”

“That’s great.” Payal smiles. “How’s your sleep these days??”

“Okay…” I shrug. “Maybe Because I changed the apartment. I am not in the penthouse anymore so change of place is giving me sleepless nights.”

I look away.

“You are lying again, Khushi. It’s not change of apartment that is giving you sleepless nights. It is something else.”

Gosh! Why is she so apt in reading my head?

“I feel lonely..”

“Because Maa left?”

“No… I feel lonely when I sleep. I mean.. I …”

“You want to be cuddled by someone?” she directly asks and I shrug.

“I don’t know.”

“You know it, Khushi. C’mon. Tell me.”

I take a minute to collate my thoughts.

“I have been sleeping alone my entire life, Payal. But this feeling of wanting someone cuddle me every night never crossed my mind before. Now suddenly.. I feel like I need a…”

“Partner?”

I shut my eyes.

“It’s wrong.” I swallow.

“Why is it wrong?”

“Because I am still married to Arnav.”

“Then initiate talking to him about the divorce.”

The way she says it casually pricks something in my heart.

“You have to do this at some point, Khushi. You told me that was your initial idea when Arnav demanded one month of stay with you to redeem himself. That by the end of it he will free you and go away. Now everything is getting back to its place. So why not? Ask him about this and I am sure as you told me he is moving on slowly, he wont deny.”

I don’t know. But yes, Lavanya and I now speak every week and I know Arnav is moving on too. He attends business parties. I even saw a picture of his because I was following Lavanya on her Instagram and she had put this story on it with a video of Arnav and their entire team toasting the drinks. He looks normal. Yeah. I should speak to him about Divorce.

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Week 10

“He sent you the divorce papers to sign?” Payal asks and I nod. I didn’t speak directly to Arnav but to Lavanya and Maa and they told me that Arnav too was preparing the same to end our relationship lawfully. So he sent me the papers to sign.

“Yes.”

“That’s great. Are you happy?”

I freeze.

“Khushi? Are you happy?”

I don’t reply.

“You can pass that question if you don’t want to answer.” She tells me.

“I am confused” I give her the truth.

“Why?”

“Because Arnav readily agreed for this or was preparing in advance to do something like this?”

“yes” I nod. “How can he.. I mean.. how can he be so normal? He said he loved me then..”

“Hold on” Payal interrupts. “forget what he said to you. He is doing this for whatever reason. It shouldn’t affect you Khushi. You don’t want him in your life. Do you? You want a partner but that’s not him. You want someone to cuddle you at night and that’s now him.”

“It’s not easy Payal.” I shout. “We had consummated our marriage.. I know it meant something to him..”

“Did it mean anything to you?”

I freeze.

“Yes it did. It was my first time and.. of course it did.. I was.. I was almost thinking on continuing my marriage with him the next morning. I.. I felt that probably that one night could change the dynamics between us and he will stop hating me and .. be nice.”

Payal keeps listening.

“Attraction was never a problem between us. But then he told his sister the next morning that night didn’t mean a thing to him.”

“Was it true?”

“I felt it true at that moment.. But later Arnav confessed to me when he came to US and stayed with us, that he lied it and was sorry about it.”

“Hmm.”

She writes some notes again.

“Khushi its all past again. If you drag that darkness still, when you see there is a light at the end of the tunnel, you will never come out of that darkness ever.”

She is right.

“Men change Khushi. It was special to him then, fine. Now he is moving on as you said. So, its great. You two have chance to end this phase of your life, fall in love again with different partners and then continue your life happily. This is your chance, don’t you think?”

She is right. This is the chance. I should take it up.

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Week 12

Three months since Arnav and I saw, or talked to each other.

“You signed the divorce petition?” Payal asks and I deny.

“Yes”

“Sent the papers to him?”

I swallow.

“No”

“Why?”

“I forgot.”

“You are lying again, Khushi.”

I shut my eyes.

“I will send it this weekend. Have a party to attend so after that I will be free to courier.”

“Good.”

“Do you feel free now that you have finally signed the papers of your freedom?”

I don’t know what to say.

“You can think over it and tell me after you send that courier to India. Now coming to your homework, Khushi. I want you to enjoy this party. To the fullest.”

“I will.”

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Week 13

“I sent the courier” I tell Payal before she asks.

“Okay. How do you feel now?”

“Okay. I am wondering if Arnav will really sign it.”

“He will”

She looks down and I swallow. He will! Yeah he should. He sent me those papers first, didn’t he?

“I am going to a party this weekend again. With Pam and NK.”

“Oh that’s great.”

“And I got a new contract too. It’s a huge one. So we are partying for that.”

“Congrats. Your work life finally seems on the right track.”

I nod.

“What about your sleep?”

I freeze.

“Still same feeling about it? Of being lonely?”

I nod.

“Why don’t you think of dating?”

“what?” I snap. “How can I? I just sent my divorce papers to Arnav. I am not divorced yet.”

“So? You have mentally never considered Arnav as your husband. Now legally you are separating from him. You have every right to find a partner, who matches your idea of life partner. No one is asking you to hurry. Take it slow. But start it somewhere.”

I am raged but I don’t show it to her. It’s not easy to find partners or go on a date, is it? At least not in my case.

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Week 16

Four months since Arnav and I saw, or talked to each other.

“Pam tried to fix me up with a guy last evening at the party,” I tell Payal who leans back to hear more.

“How was he to look?”

“Handsome..” I shrug.

“Good. What else you did with him?”

“We talked. He is a model too and we worked for a shoot together so he knows I am getting divorced soon.”

“That’s even more good. So what else happened? what all did you observe in him during your little date?”

I freeze. Take a moment and then reply.

“Nothing. I hardly glanced at him that way. We only talked about work and general stuff.”

“Why?”

“I didn’t want that conversation to go ahead.”

“Why?”

“Because only because he is handsome I can’t think of him as my future partner.”

“Why?”

I am getting annoyed now.

“He is just the first person I met as a date Payal. How can I just ogle at him?”

Payal puts her pen down and leans over the table towards me.

“Answer my next question honestly now Khushi.”

I gulp realizing she is going to ask me something I don’t want to answer.

“And you can’t pass that question.” She adds.

I clench my jaw.

“During your date with this guy, did you think about Arnav even for one second?”

I get up from my chair.

“Khushi sit down.”

“I have to go.”

“Answer me and then leave.”

“I have to go Payal”

She shrugs. I pick my phone and bag and turn around to leave only to hear her speak to me.

“You don’t want anyone else to cuddle you at night, Khushi. You specifically want ARNAV to do that to you. Only him..”

Tears moist my eyes but I don’t stop nor I turn around. I feel that too. The moment I went on this date with Rajeev last night, I realized I hated even drooling at him. It didn’t even give me any effect when Rajeev was drooling at me. Whereas had it been Arnav, his one gaze on me and my body always reacted differently. Even six years back it could affect me and even now until he left to India, it did the same. And it was wrong. It was completely wrong. When I ran away from my date in the middle giving Rajeev some excuse, I came back to my apartment, showered and what more worse could I do than wearing the same black shirt which was Arnav’s and the one he had asked me to keep it. I slept in his shirt last night after months and guess what? I GOT THE BEST SLEEP which I never did in the last four months? I don’t know what this means or rather I don’t have the courage in me to analyze if it even means anything further.

To be Continued

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Note: After ages I have given this looooong chapter of one the most challenging FF for me. There are too many judgements and arguments between readers on who is right and who is wrong? If Arnav is right or Khushi is wrong. This has been termed as the most confusing FF of mine which a few readers think has lost its plot and probably its because I focus more on my books these days. Wont deny I do that, which is obvious now, but now I want to be back here with a bang!! Even if one FF at a time, I will do my best to justify ARSHI and their love story. And in this one… it has just begun.. Arnav will have his side too. A lot of past revelations will come up too. Hope you will love it. 😊